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Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Dream of Absolute Loss
So tonight I had a really horrible dream. With a bittersweet aftertaste.
I'll summarize as my memory is fading. In the dream, I was on a star ship on my way back home (oh, hello) from some kind of mission with a squad of individuals of varying galactic origins. Think a mixture of Star Wars and Mass Effect with the space solitude feeling of Sunshine. The galaxy in this dream was both colonized by us and populated by others, in some way or the other.
This dream was not about not finding my way home though, I think. Because on the way we got a transmission that some race had made an example, or something, of Earth. This race was, or was in the control of, quiet enormous semi-mechanical worms (think a 10-story building) with really large and long claws. In an instant, I saw on the display how they entered the Earth's atmosphere and in mere seconds practically pulverized everything, leaving the planet a cratered grey rock.
I was in shock. My home planet was destroyed. I was slightly relieved in the passing thought that humanity had colonies and was therefore not doomed with me being the last, but as it sank in and I realized that everything I had known and been looking forward to and in the past experienced was now permanently and irrevocably gone. It was a mere memory. There was no going back.
But worst of all I knew that Julia was gone without so much as a chance to say good bye, or anything at all for that matter. The destruction came fast and without any prior notice. Suddenly, on a normal day, someone decided it was all going to end. She was gone. I had nothing but a memory and no hope of ever seeing her again, to share a future with her. The previous relieving thought of humanity's small colonies became pointless because I could not bring her there. She had been taken from me.
I think I awoke somehow at this point, or at least partly. It might have been her wake-up alarm, or mine, that woke me up, I don't remember. I do remember looking over towards her side of the bed and being filled with such... fantastic relief. She was there. Sleeping.
Again, I fell asleep. This time I was in some snowy landscape and there were other humans and creatures there and it sort of looked like Earth but I knew it wasn't. There were roads, houses, cars, villages, but in the horizon some larger port like structures. The things you'd probably expect to see even if we were to colonize other habitable planets. Not important.
I remember being with others; friends, strangers. I don't remember what we were doing, but we were heading towards some large structure at one part of the dream I think, but it's not important. Julia was, again, gone. Dead. But suddenly... I got from her an SMS, saying something in the way that she missed me and that it was sad that what happened had happened. I think I tried to answer her back but for some reason I couldn't spell the words I wanted to say and I think I never got to send back a response. But I had this feeling of great happiness. I knew that she was going to stay gone forever and that I would never be able to see her again, but I had this.
When I woke up I realized that the happiness and love I felt at that point, from a mere SMS, were probably stronger than most people have or will ever experience.
I'll summarize as my memory is fading. In the dream, I was on a star ship on my way back home (oh, hello) from some kind of mission with a squad of individuals of varying galactic origins. Think a mixture of Star Wars and Mass Effect with the space solitude feeling of Sunshine. The galaxy in this dream was both colonized by us and populated by others, in some way or the other.
This dream was not about not finding my way home though, I think. Because on the way we got a transmission that some race had made an example, or something, of Earth. This race was, or was in the control of, quiet enormous semi-mechanical worms (think a 10-story building) with really large and long claws. In an instant, I saw on the display how they entered the Earth's atmosphere and in mere seconds practically pulverized everything, leaving the planet a cratered grey rock.
I was in shock. My home planet was destroyed. I was slightly relieved in the passing thought that humanity had colonies and was therefore not doomed with me being the last, but as it sank in and I realized that everything I had known and been looking forward to and in the past experienced was now permanently and irrevocably gone. It was a mere memory. There was no going back.
But worst of all I knew that Julia was gone without so much as a chance to say good bye, or anything at all for that matter. The destruction came fast and without any prior notice. Suddenly, on a normal day, someone decided it was all going to end. She was gone. I had nothing but a memory and no hope of ever seeing her again, to share a future with her. The previous relieving thought of humanity's small colonies became pointless because I could not bring her there. She had been taken from me.
I think I awoke somehow at this point, or at least partly. It might have been her wake-up alarm, or mine, that woke me up, I don't remember. I do remember looking over towards her side of the bed and being filled with such... fantastic relief. She was there. Sleeping.
Again, I fell asleep. This time I was in some snowy landscape and there were other humans and creatures there and it sort of looked like Earth but I knew it wasn't. There were roads, houses, cars, villages, but in the horizon some larger port like structures. The things you'd probably expect to see even if we were to colonize other habitable planets. Not important.
I remember being with others; friends, strangers. I don't remember what we were doing, but we were heading towards some large structure at one part of the dream I think, but it's not important. Julia was, again, gone. Dead. But suddenly... I got from her an SMS, saying something in the way that she missed me and that it was sad that what happened had happened. I think I tried to answer her back but for some reason I couldn't spell the words I wanted to say and I think I never got to send back a response. But I had this feeling of great happiness. I knew that she was going to stay gone forever and that I would never be able to see her again, but I had this.
When I woke up I realized that the happiness and love I felt at that point, from a mere SMS, were probably stronger than most people have or will ever experience.
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